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Attleboro, Massachusetss, United States
Hi. Welcome. I created CookieMOMster because when I was a first time mom 6 years ago cookies saved me. I was in a whirlwind of sleepless nights, crying and baby drool. I ate lots of cookies and began writing. Writing had been my passion since I was young and I had forgotten how much it meant to me. It's funny how these little lives come into your life and cause chaos but at the same time allow you to re-discover yourself. Thank you to Konrad and Koby for that. So sit down have a cookie and read. I hope you enjoy my blog as much as I enjoy writing. Thanks for visiting. I'm glad you stopped by.

Monday, December 29, 2008

My Life List for 2009

The year is almost over. I don't like to make New Year resolutions. I feel they put too much pressure on myself. This year I made a life list. It was fun and I realized I am very rich. Happy-Healthy New Year to you and yours. Peace-God Bless

My 2009 Life List

* To be Healthy ( mentally and physically)
* put exercise into my everyday life
* eat better
* Fit into "COOL" jeans
* wear only jeans and a T-shirt (no covering up with a bulky sweatshirt)
* be a good role model for Konrad & Koby
* stop the negative. Thoughts or words. With in myself or about others. DO NOT JUDGE. EXCEPT.
* 8 hours of sleep!!!!! (no less than 7!!!!!!!)
* keep learning (anything...even if I'm done with college courses. YEA-right)
* WRITE. I will write a book(s) someday
* JOG. I have 47 more half marathons to go
* Play with Konrad and Koby
* be mentally able to share in Konrad and Koby's lives
* worry less or plan ways to conquer the worry
* BLOG more
* enjoy family and friends
* take nothing for granted (LIVE & LOVE completely)
* help the earth (recycle and teach Konrad and Koby how precious our earth is)
* HONOR my father by being the best ME possible (I LOVE YOU-DAD)
* Kiss and hug Kurt more
* laugh and be silly
* go to Disney (at least 20 more times!)
* communicate (share my thoughts, feelings, dreams, desires, goals)
* buy a new pair of shoes, jeans, earrings and fragrance
* get a massage and a facial
*buy a pool (save to buy a pool)
*HUG the dogs
* put my all into work (they are our future)
* do not be afraid to show emotion (cry if I must...laugh too)
* love, except and nurture my inner self
* photograph LOTS
* sing and dance
* buy books, even if I haven't finished the one I'm reading
* buy new lip gloss
* THANK GOD for all that I have ( I am blessed)
* eat more cookies!!!!! (jog an extra 10 minutes)

Monday, December 8, 2008

A Face Hidden

Before I begin I must confess that I haven't posted a blog in a while because I've been afraid. Afraid to write, afraid to bare my soul. Someone asked me how my mom and dad where doing today and that was all I could handle. I need to blog. When I write I hope my readers will take something away from my words and add it someway to their lives, for better or for worse. I don't want my readers to feel sorry, guilty or whatever for me as the writer. Just enjoy my words and connect with them somehow. That is my HOPE anyway. Now to begin.....

I get up everyday- dress, shower, eat breakfast, take care of the kids and dogs...then it's off to do my day. Work or whatever. But before I walk out the door I put on my mask. The mask of a strong face. No sorrow, no tears. A mask of strength. Eyes focused, mouth relaxed. The mask is used so I can continue living with out the greatest dad in the world. (I thought so, anyway) December is a month where so many are running around with holiday cheer, but for me my mask of strength is held tightly to my face. But today it cracked. When that person asked, "How's your mom and dad?" As she said the words the world stopped around me, I heard nothing but saw her expression when she saw my face and realized as I said the words, "my father passed away. He got cancer and died." Two things crossed my mind as she asked the question, lie and tell her good and walk away or scream, "God took him too early!!!!!" My mask and I opted for the truth but with that truth came the tears I keep hidden. My mask cracked. My dad died on December 18. My birthday is December 12. The mask of strength is the only way I make it through this month. My kids smiles and laughter bring me joy but sorrow too because Bampa isn't here. For tonight my mask is cracked. I will mend it tomorrow before I walk out the door.