To Blog or not to blog...that has been my question of the day. But leaving the bathroom and seeing my god-awful refelction in the mirror I knew I must blog. As a mom I get busy and tend to let myself go, as I am sure many of you can relate to. Even if you don't have kids life gets busy and we tend to forget about giving ourselves some TLC. As I saw myself in the mirror, no gloss on the lips, a black eye (thanks to Koby's head), and my short hair pulled back with a clip on the top of my head with two big feathered like wings of hair coming out on each side, like the joker from Batman! Kim-get a hold of yourself, I thought. I immediatley reached for some revitalizing hair spray and went to work, added some gloss and went straight to the computer. Now here I sit. It's funny how just a little primping can lift your spirits. For the past many months I have been feeling empty. Or maybe Blah is the word. Like I need to spice up my life...do something crazy. Something to feel alive. I'm not sure if anyone has done the Polar Plunge in January,but DO IT! Because that is the feeling I am looking for. It's crazy to be jumping into the water when it is freezing outside, it's a little nerve racking and scary too-you think, oh God please don't let me have a heart attack. No sharks, it's too cold. My wintey white skin might scare a little kid, but they count you down 5, 4, 3, 2, 1....and there is a mad dash for the water (or in the case of last year, it was just 4 of us) you just have to run in, don't stop. The harsh, bitter cold doesn't hit you right away, when it does you're on your way out of the frigid cold water to your warm towel. Your feet feel like bricks and the boogies are frozen to your face but you can't stop laughing and neither can those around you. You feel so alive!
I recently had another opportunity to feel a bit crazy when I got my second tatoo. One of my best friends from high school came for a visit, she is to turn....this February and wanted to do something wild. Feeling empty and blah I quickly joined in on her fun. My cousin Ryan drew this kick ass sea turtle with my boys names and the number 11 in memory of my dad going through the turtles shell. With each prick of the needle I felt more alive, when it was finished it was perfect. It was the warm towel on that cold January day. So today again I have that same feeling of blah. I want to do something to feel alive. Writing and jogging help. I don't think I've always had this blah empty feeling. And I'm not that wild and crazy that I'd jump from a plane,(maybe if I had no kids). So what is it that drives me to blah...my look in the mirror? I have no idea, but that was the look that made me blog today, and at this moment I do feel alive! Maybe tomorrow I'll get a hair cut, that usually works for a day or two. And I'll have a cookie, nothing says alive like a fresh chocoalte chip cookie straight out of the oven.
Have you had a cookie today?

To live like POOH BEAR

well I just had my first, of I am sure many BLOG mess ups....I had a blog all written then I pressed something and poof it was gone. Well the first few lines where there, nothing else. Bummer. I started off by saying thank you to all who are reading and/or commenting. I appreciate it. Also please feel free to give my blog info. out to anyone you may think would be interested. Now to begin...As some of you may know I am a list oriented person. I write a list for just about everyhting. So for the summer I made a summer reading list. I put on it 13 books I have been wanting to read or finish reading. That brings me to the book I just finished, A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. At first I thought I should stop reading it becasue it seemed too much for a summer read, but thankfully I kept reading and closed the book a more "PRESENT" person. One of my favorite books of all time is the Tao of Pooh. I always wanted to try and live my life like Pooh, simple yet profound. I am sorry to say I haven't picked up the book in years and really should have when life got too much. But now with Eckhart Tolle he again made me see how living in the present is so important to what life is all about. He wrote, "The present moment is always small in the sense that it is always simple, but concealed within it lies the greatest power." (pg.266-7) And that brings me to witnessing my boys playing outside today. They where simply running in circles and yelling their little heads off, just being in the moment. My moment was watching them. It was beautiful. Being "PRESENT" is something I do when I jog. I never think about how far I need to go, I just put one jogging shoe in front of the other and just BE. I breath and go, at that moment I am PRESENT with each step and breath I take. I recommend this book to everyone who wants to be more "PRESENT" in their lives. And right now my "PRESENT" is to sip my coffee and take a bite of cookie. "Be still. Look. Listen. Be present. " (pg. 236)
Have you had a cookie today?

cookie-MOMster is born

For over a year now I have been taking a writing class. Since I was a little girl I loved to write. During my twenties I hate to say I never picked up a pen to write, I had totally forgotten the love I had for it. Fast forward to the birth of my first son the urge to write began to grow once again. Then with the birth of my second little guy I was all consumed by it. I began writing in journals for them, writing about things that they did or how I felt about being their mom. I continue to write in them so someday I can present them with my journey of being their mom. Writing in those journals inspired me to begin writing for myself, then enrolling in the writing class and now here I sit composing a piece for my very own blog! The idea behind cookie-MOMster came from those journals that I write for Konrad and Koby. Being a new mom I was CRAZY!!!!!(still am) The only thing that would calm me were cookies and coffee. These two little beings bring chaos and much happiness to my life. I hope you will join me on this ride.
Have you had a cookie today?
I did. An Oreo and a coffee=CALM.